Letting go?

Last night I was on facebook and decided to join the "dear john" fan club! I can already tell its going to be a mushy guuusshy chick flick with water works (crying incase you dont know) and I will be fist in line to see it because I am a hopeless romantic. So procrastinating my homework I decided to look at the Dear John profile and see what pics they had up. Had no idea what i was in for. I started looking through this entire album of couples who have been seperated for their country. These picture hit me so hard that I got into this mind set of what if that were me? I admire these brave men so much that they can just leave their families behind for months at a time to serve and protect our freedom. But then i looked at the other side of the map. The wife, the daughter, the son, the girlfriend how do they let go? How do they physically let this person from their arms and watch them get on a plane to fly away?? The thought of it really disturbed me because I get very attached to the things I truely care about. If I had to let my dad go I would be a mess thinking about is he ok? will he come home? how long will he be gone? These people who live through this everyday amaze me by how much strength they must have. I worry myself to the point of physical illness because I want to be in control of everything all the time! I dont want things to go wrong and when they do I panic! These men and women are doing such an amazing thing but in the back of my mind I would be asking myself why my family? Why does MY brother have to go try and help these people who have been having problems sense god set them down on earth. The selfishness would just swell untill I couldnt bare it. If I had to let my husband(when I have one) go to war I dont know how I would manage. I would probably beg and plea for them not to leave. I'm glad I havent had to face that kind of trial. Maybe because god knows I wouldnt be able to handle it..(haha thanks god) But I will have a similar experience soon enough. Not as heart wrenching as war. But just to watch someone special sacrafice two years of their life for missionary work. I admire people who are so unselfish that they do it with a grin and a thumbs up because they know what they are doing is right and will benifit others! But us who are stuck here..feel a little useless and just miss them. But you always have to pick your brain up and put it back on the path of what they are actually doing out there. You cant always think well..they were just taken away from me..selfish. You have to keep reminding your flawed mind that they are out there serving! They are protecting our countries freedom! They are helping other people find happiness in an amazing gospel. Lexie..dont you want other people to know how amazing this person is? Dont you want others to know true happiness. Its like finding a magic wand. You have this magic wand and you can do anything and it makes you so unbelievably happy! But at the end of the day you put it in your pocket and no one else benifits from it. Why would you do that? You gotta shaaarree...the dreaded word. sharing. Amazing people we have on this earth. Glad we have them to coutneract with that bad people!
Deal with it :]